SURREAL ILLUSION

My stint with TV got over in Feb and I was freelancing ever since. I wanted a stable job but thanks to recession TV wasn’t hiring then. I was writing my animations… my films and took up a new book to read without complaining about the situation and cashing on to the “me time”. This one day my roomie suggested I give out my CV into films since that’s what I want to do eventually so why waste time hither-tether. Made sense… and the next day I had a mail from a group on facebook posting requirements for assistant directors and I applied and forgot about it.

So this lame Monday afternoon I get a call. I was speechless for sometime coz I never expected the call to land up in the first place since I have no film experience whatsoever. I thot who cares! No harm meeting n so I went. Versova- Nadiadwala house… 30 mins and I met Sajid who is directing the film and I was in! He insists I got the film becoz of my surname that I share with the legendary film maker and father of Indian cinema Dadasaheb Phalke, but really that’s the only thing we share… no relation! We chatted for almost an hour and shared our common passion for cinema and I thought ‘wow! No better person to learn from than Sajid, the encyclopedia of films’. I was exhilarated and was really dumbfounded. I wasn’t able to converse with him even a single line properly. I kept telling him I never thot it would be so easy and he kept smiling.

I returned home making calls to possibly everybody close to me and announcing to them. This was the biggest move of my life. So close to my dream that I can’t believe am actually there. I truly believe that when you really badly want something the cosmos conspires to make it happen for you. This is not out of the book but a true life experience. Everytime I wanted something I got it…. my dad thought I was pig headed and stubborn but eventually realized that I dint have to go to the extent of being obstinate at all to get what I want. I just had to wish it. All that was happening in the span of 3 days was surreal and seemed like an illusion. Even the illusion seems like weird. The shoot will be abroad, 3 months in 3 countries… so there my dream of visiting London is fulfilled with a bonus of 2 other countries that I don’t know of yet.

When life gives you wounds it heals them too. Just a matter of time I feel. I have seen many ups and downs in the past 12 months in my career, personal life and my relationship. Every time it seemed like the world would end this time but every time I was given a chance or a reason to get up and walk. Every time I fell down I had a hand that would help me get up and that means a lot to me. Strange are the ways of life. Two big dents in the past 3 months and both have been filled. I am still recuperating but I am not sad thinking about it. Whatever happens, happens for good and both the grave incidents have only made me stronger and taught me how to fight back. No trash talk, no mush, no emotional crap but simply live the life that has been gifted to me. My otherwise dreary and melancholic life suddenly had a spring of energy in it and I am smiling again. It’s been long I must say that I have felt so happy… from within. Few things that make me truly happy from within – travel, my people and the smile that I can bring on my close one’s face. All three happened together in the past 10 days.

I know my life will not be the same again but all I know is whatever it will be from here on, it’s only going to be awesome! I am learning to live with whatever life is giving to me – some things that I expect, some things less than that… some little surprises and some little shocks. But that’s life ryt!

I am rejuvenated and a new person now… ready to tread through the walk of life. Sometimes surreal illusions are too beautiful to let go of! I am living in one….