...and then after...

There was a girl who was scared of love. She always thought that when you love someone you lose them and that refrained her from expressing what she felt. People complained she was indifferent, they said she din't care. But the truth was she was scared.

Then came a time when the three little words became inevitable and she was perplexed. Her confusion led to a lot of loss of time and the three little words lost their importance again. She sat in one corner weeping and cursing her inability to express and her unreasonable fear of losing people.

One day the person she loved assumed she doesnt care and walked out of her life. She did not hear from him for months and she feared she will have to encounter the worst fear of her life. It was indispensable now that she mustered courage and admitted to her feelings. Love ain't all that bad she thought. She cannot let the feeling go for a feeling that has no root or cause. It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved!

She ran to her love and confessed everything she felt for him. She felt relieved and felt like a million stars were smiling down upon her. She felt a rainbow going over head and butterflies flying around her. She saw an angel with a violin and that moment she knew it was love. She had never felt so beautiful before. She smiled and danced and.... he hugged her tight!

... and then after her life changed full circle. She felt love in everything around. Her mind transformed and so did her thoughts and life wasnt the same. Then after i decided to speak everything that came to my mind because it only made me feel lighter. Atleast i did not have to listen to lame allegations that i am indifferent or cold or detached and more such words. No am not! There are more people like me in the world who have a problem in expressing what they feel.

My innermost feelings are too private to be shared i feel at times. But those feelings need to vent out also. There is really no right time or right place. Just say it! Today i am perhaps a little more comfortable in telling people i love them, i miss them or i genuinely care for them. Although to put it in exact words is difficult but i try my best to say it or express it in the best possible obvious manner. I am not cold, i have a heart too and my own sensibilities. I may arrive late in life but i arrive atleast!

For now i am glad i did. I am repenting the lost occasions but also thinking how to make up for it and planning for the one's coming ahead. For once i have really no shame in admitting i love you!

For those close to my heart will always remain so but its important for them to know how much i love them! So be it...
I LOVE YOU